Sunflower

'Everything is a guide,
I had thought
But then the world would be here
Only to keep us from becoming lost'

– 'The New Season', James McCorkle

 

apocalyptic end of things    final line conclusion
scrambling how time works    learning how to fly
constant failure to levitate    pushed into slow descent
lurking in the shadows    tiny closet of a room
real chemistry at work    radical translation
reincarnation of some sort    poems of my own making

backwards through art history    sequences or series
silent conversations    more coherent speech
find out information    make up your own mind
overhaul the alphabet    progress forward now
artificial intelligence    an awful thing to say
discover where we are going    luring people away

carpeted from wall to wall    edited start to finish
outrageous and high-handed    gonna walk all over you
forming its own structure    moving through the room
hostile to performance    make the world my own
brief instances of darkness    comets in the sky
laws of love and pity    rockets to the moon

diversity and access    contents of the mind
misplaced sense of importance    emotionally attached
exclamation-marked horizon    attempting to belong
field trips and rock formations    articulate aloud
exploring unlit passages    ambition's constant charm
weathered skylights black with age    spray painting in the dark

everything is mentioned    but there is no real proof
forgotten footnotes in the text    diverse community
slight differences of detail    revolution's end
would have to be repeated    could not be otherwise
always illness or accident    inflicting harm by glance
no taboo on looking    be silent do not touch

familiar as wooden piers    splinters in every tree
expert in dramatic productions    sad and backward glance
elderflower tea and strawberry wine    chestnuts and walnuts too
dynamite theologians    looking after spiritual needs
after argument or visit    things begin to improve
walk about the streets alone    centre of the world

grand corridors of power and glass    past is common to us all
you get to play the hero then    write the final scene
conjure up demons and wizards    beauty of water's song
four minutes to cross the river    secret travel plans
chained to the gates of the palace    buried alive in a tomb
no mourning or apology    death is terminal

hopscotch involves a pattern of squares    sent messages reach mum
nobody must break the chain    keep quiet about the corpse
oak trees are safe in electric storms    belong to both and neither world
the plumbing is in disarray    we nearly got washed away
love comes from being vulnerable    a memory of popular songs
rain on an empty playing field    water from out of the clouds

individual sequences and poems    who and what I once was
tomatoes ripening in autumn sun    not definitive, incomplete
a question about interpretation    the reader co-creates
making better choices    trying to find the time
impatient and impetuous    not into end of line rhyme
invasion as noble effort    corresponding with all my friends

japanese maple in autumn sun    moment in the mind
turn from the sleeping woman    she is not looking at me
scrutiny and interrogation    emerging from the self
sensuous level of perception    wild laugh of relief
face lit up softly sheds the years    emotions without cause
current theories of the mind    I am trying to get home

knots have long figured in magic    ties us all to the mast
strings and magnets and clockwork    like the back of my hand
we don't live near heaven    knowledge blinks out of view
question the nature of music    sound engulfs the room
low light leaking from metaphor    signal fading then gone
it is all there so to speak    faith structures defeating the eye

lots to interest and entertain    things we've all heard about
limited time high turnaround    repeated fractures and breaks
frequent loud interruptions    someone has something to say
start out with different intentions    in isolation now
at the centre of the story    said I looked like her son
long way to go for transcendence    my whole being shakes

mirror, inkblot, shadow, chair    puzzles of different shapes
two simple loops the very same size    drawings made out of names
complete or partial anagrams    a hundred empty rooms
rejection through the letterbox    interrupted plans
always intense and personal    a huge amount of work
names have a special significance    it's time to leave the stage

nothing less than everything    private self and public world
training as a visionary    cheap teenage punks with guns
medium of transformation    the touch of a dead man's hand
history requires that fear    made several attempts to speak
words lost through coastal erosion    rethinking the time
an occasion to see beyond this    nowhere in her eyes

over the hills and far away    music played till dawn
end of the world flickers into view    stretching from earth to sky
chronological familiarity    no time left to spare
overwhelming restlessness    destination made quite clear
structure is now cellular    a circle of events
closed eyes see the mirror    the magic morning is here

prayer flags strung out in the wind    mountains in the mist
the future stood around to view    moments undefined
repeated rites of passage    life cycles built for one
debris from exploded buddhas    caves in which to hide our souls
hummingbird returns to me    frozen in mid-air
summoning angels to quiz them    phrases older than rhyme

questions to be answered    dead husband in her dreams
apple and orange on three sticks    spring greenery and flowers
evil eye and borrowed pail    speak ill of absent friends
never struck by lightning    burnt with a blue flame
straw torches or small bonfires    what we have never seen
all things turn and spin and change    restlessness resumes

representation of temporal aspects    their morale was intact
someone will get it into their head    the intercom might have failed
down the lane past the houses    the sheer chaos that war brings
blear-eyed google and squinting    makes physical demands
draw the same line down the canvas    trample corn to pick the flowers
self-disgust and unvoiced rage    out of the house for hours

sunflower waiting to bud in September    a kind of refining move
specialisation producing restlessness    the next turn on the right
try and upset our way of seeing    digital photographs and film
doodles on small bits of paper    blown up very large
my office is a dining table    parent to all these words
fifteen squares in a dark tunnel    reports from another world

trying to write an alphabet with sand    in a busy rush-hour street
a city of the future    got everything it should
twisted circles make a chain    be sure that it's complete
writing an imaginary letter    words glued to a sign
hang a string across the room    photocopy the world outside
ask to be buried out of doors    where the dead and living join

unanimity of opinion    only increases mystique
this thing could peel a planet    a crescendo of yells and leaps
slowly squeezed out of the picture    shabby symbols of life
large slabs of polished black granite    heads studying the floor
derangement of the senses    looking filthy and sad
further riots would follow    spearheading the new sound

versions of songs with similar tunes    another burnt-out old ruin
a kind of recuperation at work    this piece not conceptual at all
pointing hissing and stamping    next morning blind in one eye
real things were distant    reason a weathered stone
surprise blurred by vibration    everything in the shade
biting their thin bony knuckles    threshold of heaven and earth

we have known adjustment    illustrated tomes
collaborated together    working in various styles
often a good balance to be found    visions of magic and string
intelligence taste and feeling    known for disturbing the peace
hoping to receive an answer    hands and arms above the head
do not doubt in asking    futile gestures and signs

x marked on the treasure map    information is unique
people want us to have attitude    start unloading the van
invisible drawings in whiteness    we'll never work again
barely noticeable atmosphere    sound obscured and transformed
unbroken skin emits a high pitch    drowning in its own tune
prayer and liturgical activity    always looking down

yes the moon is full tonight    planning may take three years
open space is the best use of land    treasured and lucky ground
ecological concerns have been voiced    tidal marshes must be filled
leaves only when he chooses    stones in his or her hand
timber platform or extension    dangerous starlight and dreams
a call to prayer for the living    spirits gather as well

z what we use to symbolize snores    constant access to the noise
little stabs of happiness    smiles reflected in other's frowns
retire and live in lofty seclusion    two feet dragging slow
surface rather than chamber    unmuscled as a child
a recording of past and specific place    neither human nor machine
a far away hum of voices    beautiful as last night's dream

 

copyright © Rupert M. Loydell, 2005.


Rupert Loydell is Managing Editor of the Exeter-based publishing house Stride and the web magazine Stride (www.stridemagazine.co.uk). His most recent collection, A Conference of Voices, was published by Shearsman in October 2004.